Do I want him back?

[forward]

Well, today I decided to follow C's advice--namely, when H comes over to busy myself with other things so H can spend time w/D1. Also to not tell H what to do w/D1. The thought is that

I was also listening to my new CDs and drinking some excellent wine!!

I notice he stayed an extra 20 minutes but he does not linger with me, only with D1.

Told H that I am taking D1 to see the new baby in the family over long weekend and he looked aghast and saddened.

Well, he has the girl child to keep him company and considers being w/D1 "work," sooooo....

In the meantime I am thinking maybe I need to spend less time trying to "solve" this problem and let go for real. I don't think I am really letting go even though I'm playing by the book.

H still has not paid me any money for D1 for this month. Said he would today...he did not.