Well another month is nearly over, no change in the sit. w's bf is round family home most weekends and has been at extended family get together's I have been present at. He doesn't seem to be there all the time so that is something.
Still think about filing myself probably in the new year around my 2 year sobriety mark, we will see. Seems that when I came to this decision (whether it happens or not is not known yet) my out look has changed slightly. Must be that detachment stuff happening.
Still read posts here but find that too much time spent here can be depressing, don't post much I find I half write a reply then cancel out thinking I really don't have much to offer.
Fathers day next weekend another chance for this situation to raise it's ugly head and cast it's dark shadow over what should be a happy family day. I used to say every day is fathers day and I guess it still is.
Am taking the children to my mindfulness group tomorrow night, The group is having a 'Rose Ceremony' were we honor our ancestors, participants are given two small roses one for each parent a red on signifies a living parent and a white one a deceased parent. I found it quite moving last year and hope that the kids get something out of it, they are all growing up so quickly.
I am of the mindset now that my w will have to be the one to make any reconciliatory move. This will not happen whilst om is in the picture and most likely not happen. I will continue to treat her respectfully and get on with my life.
Anniversary come up next month too 19 years, another non event.
