Saffie - There was only a couple of people that showed interest and i honestly can't remember who they were now, i think one was nicfromtheuk. If you are interested in doing it then maybe you could start a thread.
Had a great day at the Christening with D3 today, the weather was lovely so could not have been better . It was hard though, once again seeing all those lovely families together, cuddling and laughing with their children. It is especially these times that i feel so sorry for my little girl. There was one family there and the bloke was the stepdad but by looking you would never have known, he was so natural and fantastic with the kids. I could tell that the kids adored him as if he was there biological father. This gave me hope today that whatever happens it is possible for me and my little girl to share our life with someone who loves and adores us.
I am going away tomorrow to MIL's overnight, D3 is really looking forward to seeing her and i dare say she will get spoilt lol .
Hope everyone is ok
Nicky
Me 34 H 33 D3 together 10 years married 2 years Bomb 22/8/06 (I feel empty) OW involved
Thanks for that. I might start up a thread and see what interest I get.
I'm sorry it was hard for you to see the families together at the christening. You never know what's going to happen and you also never really know what other people's sitch's are. When I found out about my H's A, I was devastated. I have been amazed since people have known about my sitch, by how many of my friends and relatives have been thro' similar things.
Keep DBing and hope for the best. Saffie
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
D3 and i got back from my MIL's this afternoon, we had a great time .
I have deciced to start decorating the hall stairs and landing, which is a big job due to all the woodwork that needs sanding down and painted. When my husband phoned earlier D3 would not talk to him so i got into a conversation about doing the decorating. He seemed concerned that it was such a big job etc but never once offered to help in anyway. At the moment i have an overwhelming sense of aloneness, i am responsible for absolutly everything. Today after cleaning my MIL's house for her and then driving back home which took a couple of hours i had to mow the lawn, see to D3, sand the woodwork down, make dinner, give D3 a bath and at some point need to find time to actually sit down and have 5 mins to try and get rid of this horrible headache that i have and to top it off my hoover has just broke, not my day lol .
I have really missed my husband today and all i could think was, i bet OW does not have to paint her own house because she has got my husband to do it for her.
Sorry just needed to have a little vent, maybe i am coming down with something, who knows
Hope evryone is ok
Nicky
Me 34 H 33 D3 together 10 years married 2 years Bomb 22/8/06 (I feel empty) OW involved
Well after getting D3 fed, bathed and to bed and after taking some paracetamol for my headache i am feeling a little better .
I can't believe i actually gave OW any of my head space today, who cares if she has someone to do her decorating, i am perfectly capable of coping on my own and doing my own decorating. I feel like such a whimp getting upset over some decorating, it's a case of just get on with it and shove that broom up my a$$ and sweep the floor while i'm at it lol
Hope everyone is ok
Nicky
Me 34 H 33 D3 together 10 years married 2 years Bomb 22/8/06 (I feel empty) OW involved
Well once again i probably did bad DB. This morning i was driving in my car and OW passed me going in the opposite direction, she blatently looked at me and smirked. The kind of smirk that you give when you have won and you are being smug. I eneded up texting my husband and telling him that i was sick of there affair being thrown in my face where ever i go. Husband rang me straight away to see if i was ok, i told him that i had, had enough of seeing her all the time and if i could move away with D3 i would. He came to OW's defence by saying the she would not have done it on prpose because she is not like that. I told him that she was able to take a married man and a father away from his little girl so why wouldn't she do something like that. They only live a couple of minutes away so i have seen OW a few times and it hurts to be reminded so often.
He came to visit D3 tonight and i ended up saying that it hurt that She has everything, her son gets to see my husband every day and D3 barely sees him. That we were trying to get on with our lives and things like what OW did is not necessary and hurtful.
He was so quick of the phone to defend OW, without even trying to hear me out, i am at the point where i am sick of feeling like a joke. D3 and i have never intentionally hurt anyone and this is the sort of thing that happens, i am sick of it.
Hope evryone is ok
Nicky
Me 34 H 33 D3 together 10 years married 2 years Bomb 22/8/06 (I feel empty) OW involved
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