Your post shows an undercurrent of anger. Not the OJ type, but it is destructive to you. Somehow, I feel that it translates to the ex. At this point, you must stop this obsessing. You agree that you are doing and then do it again. Live your life. If she is going to come around watching you be strong and do the things you have to do will be the main impetus for her in deciding whether to return. We have to let go to be free.
