Still Tryin's new thread 2

[S.T. _I Made It!]

This letter was in the heat of all the lies and stuff. 5-26-06 It was one month after I found out the first bomb, of him not loving me. And I had also found out him having the A. He had already driven to see her twice and his plans for going out of town to be alone...well, he lied about that too, went to go meet her or maybe she even was there with him. I'll probably never know for sure.


I hope you had lots of fun in Tallequa, someday I'm going to do that too! Hopefully your reading this when your suppose to. < I asked him to read it while he was there toward the last day> I just want you to know that I will always be here for you. I am still your best friend. Anyone else would probably be hating you or pushing you out the door, but I am not everyone else. Because I am letting God have control over this situation, he has released my anger and pain. He has opened my eyes to the woman I have been playing. I have not been the woman God has called me to be, but he has changed me and is still changing me, and I am excited about it! I want you to know that no matter how hard, bad, sinful, painful our lives can be, Jesus has died for us so that we do not have to be bound by that.
Ephesians 2:4 "But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ Jesus even when we were dead in sin- it is by grace we have been saved."
As I write this I'm thinking how proud and excited I am for you when you go riding alone around the lake. I hope God fills your heart with peace and understanding. God created us in his image, and His will is for you to live with him in heaven for eternity. That is why he gave up his son to die for our sins because we could not pay the price.
You are a man of worth, and you are priceless! You have so much to give to our children and everyone around you.
Be careful out there, have a wonderful time and we will be waiting patiently for you and can't wait to hear how your trip went!
In Gods Love,
Crissy


My purpose for this letter was to tell him his worth. To let him know what God was doing in my life and to build him up. I realized, through the For Women Only book, and the Bible, that I had not built him up, and that is the W's job, to build her H up, not bring him down. I also wanted to witness to him because I never have. And for my believe of christianity, that one must be saved to live in eternity in heaven that for me never to share that with him is sickening. What kind of person am I that could love someone and not care about their life after death, if that is my belief? Because I was scared of pushing him away, and scared of what he would think of me. I still feel that way now even, but I am working on that.

wow. this is bringing back memories that are really filling me with emotions. okay, I think that's all for today! shwew.