Yea Paul. Annie is just pulling our leg. Imagine some beautiful, independent, intelligent, sexy, head-strong 40-something woman, all alone, on a big farm with fences needing fixing so the horses and dogs don't roam off, divorced, maybe a bit lonely and horn..... Na, Shangri-La does not exist.
-------- Been a real good week for me. Been very productive at work and got oooo so many compliments - both business related and personal. A few from some ladies
I also been out and about (even though the South is still above 100 deg almost each day) and my interactions with others have been so positive.
But hell, I deserve this. I have been positive and got equal in return.
Power slept last night but I was pulled from my sleep at 1:15 by a line of thunderstorms. Did we need the rain! I listened to it for an hour - lighting, thunder and the downpour. It was so primal - one of those things in life that reminds you of a higher power; a power unchanged since time began.
Reminded me of how insignificant my problems are.
I know it is difficult to put together, but my journey contains a mountain to climb and a river to run at the same time. May not be possible in real life but so what. It works for me. There must be a river running uphill somewhere - I know, since I am on it.
Some days I run the rapids - others I chop through the brush while carrying the boat.
I had some rough water lately and some stiff underbrush to work through but I am in a good place this week. A restful stop with a decent view. Hope it continues.
I still find these boards of comfort but the message I came here for I never found. The title is Divorce Busting - that I did not find. But I have found so many wonderful people here, people trying so hard to do the right things in life, no quitters in sight.
That has lifted me up these past 19 months (15 on the BB). I wish I could communicate with more folks - newcomers is full I see.
But I may post a bit less as I refocus on GAL and getting the divorce done. I send my markup of my papers to my lawyer Monday - should be quick after that.
That is my Christmas present to myself - a new life, new people and perhaps new love in my life. A new man, and a strong father and role model for my kids.
Shangri-La does exist: we cannot find it - it is up to us to build it.
