God, the devil or fate?

[BryanS]

My opinion: if you're in a situation like you're in where everything's already final, don't feel bad about getting angry. Sure, you can DB after divorce in theory but I'm not sure how realistic that is. You tried, it failed, you've earned the right to be anything you want. Call him an ass, ignore him if he talks to you, whatever you feel like. I'm just starting the DB process and it's a tie for the hardest thing I've ever done so I have a tremendous amount of respect for those that have given it a lengthy trial.

I think it was God giving you a chance to release some of the emotion your DBing has caused you to hold inside. He was telling you that you don't have to hold it anymore, that if you keep holding it it could poison you.