DONNA--finding herself #15

[mkultra]

I am amazed at the level of calm you can achieve when you put your mind to it. I know we are emotional creatures but you are dealing with a very negative situation. I know we all are but at least my kids and I do not have to see it. My mom does and that is painful enough for her and me. People can be so disrespectful when they have a sense of entitlement. Maybe it is the mom in me or the buddhist background or the Christian background or whatever but I feel like I have always been putting other people before me. I always had this , "No, after you," mentality but I am a chick? Are you this way? Do you put other people before you? Do you get mad when people take advantage of your kindness. It seems like that is what your H has done. I dunno. It is very frustrating to have so much unconditional love for someone who cannot appreciate it. My H does not even realize or want the level of forgiveness I am able to bestow upon him if the fog ever cleared. Maybe I am blind and I also love a ghost.