Quote: Why is it that when you aren't getting to spend time with WAS you want to spend time and then when you get to spend time you want more and so forth.
it's like christmas time...you don't think much about your presents til their under the tree staring at you and then when you have to look at them everyday but don't know what's in them you can't wait and start to shake them and really wonder "what the hell is in this one??"
Quote: how do I handle this
by accepting that eventually you do find out whats in them and more often than not the ones you shook the least and pondered over less were the ones you truly appreciated.
Quote: how do I tell if she is using me.
good question...you listed some things that show she's not using you. in what manner do you feel you are being used?? and try to keep in mind there is a difference between serving a purpose (being significant, having meaning) and being used.
Quote: she says she doesn't know what she wants.
and it may be some time before she does know what she wants...
so for now act "as if" the way things are now is good enough.
