Hulllooo, Mr. Phoenix! How are things on your part of the planet? Thinking of ya!
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
Doing OK. Just having a very full week and weekend with work and kids. As I mentioned to a few of you here it has been a very difficult week (non R). However, I'm doing better, but just didn't saying much about it in this thread. As you know I was gone for a week, away from sitch, then this weekend W is gone back to her roots which seems to be nice too. Not having to walk on glass and wonder what step I have to take next. Just getting to be me is just wonderful. In a lot of ways I think W has pushed some of her issues into my life, then when she doesn't like to see them in front of her, projected in me, she pushes away what she can, but gets mad when there doesn't seem to be much improvement.
Does that make sense?
We'll it's late and I'm rambling.
Text messaging with W has still been good this weekend. Things seem to be improving one small step at a time. However, I do know how stubborn W can get at times and let's not talk pride.
Hope this time apart will help W figure out where her real goals should be.
I do know how stubborn W can get at times and let's not talk pride.
I bet you can match that stubborness, and I mean that in a good way. It's a tough deal when stubborn works against each other, but think how good it can be when all those long ears are pointed in the same direction. You're getting both directions from W yet, but if you keep your ears forward you draw attention from the rest of the herd and they want to know what you are looking at and get interested too. Might be pretty flighty for a while until they get used to the idea of what they are seeing and know it isn't scary.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
My H would comment on how stubborn I was during our D sitch b/c I never gave up & he knew I wouldn't.
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
It has been an incredibly difficult last couple of days. Tomorrow should be better. There has been a lot of non R issues to deal with out of the home. I was having one of those days where I almost just don't care any more, but I think I'm back on track. I've had a real good look at how short life is and of course what I'm dealing with now didn't seem worth all the hassle. However, I also saw that I am the one that has to answer for my actions, even to my own children. So the game drags on.
Some days I wonder if I will ever see a nice anniversary card again from W. Some days I feel like a "walking saint", some days I feel like Sam Kineson. Don't know if I should smile or scream, if I should say something or not. Let's see how tomorrow plays out.
Hope things have settled a bit since your last post. You sounded very confused, and somewhat down in the dumps. We all have those days, and it's understandable under the circumstances. I also hope the non R issues have eased, and you are finding peace with those events.
Well, at least the weekend is upon us. Have a good one.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
Yes the week moves on. Weekend looks very busy. A Tuesday funeral helped put everything back in perspective of what important and what's just petty. However I must admit there was a few minutes there, like a religious leader contemplating a marriage situation said, I saw a hearse go by and wished I was in it. But then I went home, held my kids and knew I had to continue the "fight".
So, I'm trying to figure out what a good next move is going to be. There has got to be something that I can do to open this R up for some good change. I refuse to just suffer along.
Whew. Those are strong words and I hope you mean them in a positive way. I know you've been on the 'fight' for so long, but do remember that sometimes when we are on the ledge the best thing to do is nothing. ((((phoenix))))
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
I've just had the feeling I should do something, which is in a way funny since I am so busy with my GAL. My not even see W today, opposing schedules, but in a way I'm just fine with that. I got things to do.
Sooner or later I feel that we need to get back into C, when and how to approach it is the question. Just when I feel I should push for C, I get the impression to hold off. However I do feel that if we don't do C I will never feel like I did everything. So if things go south I would have not given it my all.
