Frustrated and More Saddened #3

[stewart10]

Heim:

Thanks for this post. You are really helping me stay focused on what I have to do. And I think I am only a couple months behind you in my situation.

Also, at this point, you're in such turmoil you need to seriously consider how you're going to approach her about this. I don't see you not doing so. Whether that's DBing or not, if you can't handle the uncertainty, well, you have every right to get it cleared up for your own sanity.

You are right here. Don't really know how best to approach this whole thing. I am sure that it will get turned around on me that I shouldn't have looked at her bank statement. I just don't know how much longer I can exist like this. The uncertainty is killing me. I don't know how to bring it up. Any suggestions would definitely be welcomed.

You've been allowing your W to dictate your moods alot. You've done a lot better job recently GALing. Keep it up. Don't wallow in your fear and anger. Accept it and try to move through it. It's going to take a few more days to feel on a somewhat more even keel, but it'll come.

I know I have a long way to go on this. I definitely am guilty of letting her dictate my moods. If she is friendly to me, I am in a much better mood. When she is in one of her moods, my PMA disappears. That is why I have to get better at detachment. The more I detach the less she is able to dictate anything.

Thanks again for posting. I really do appreciate the time.

Stew