why don't I listen to my own stories?

[NikB]

Agent99: that story's pretty inspiring, thanks for posting it! I am in a place where I'm sooo sick of wishy-washy but I realize I am not "done" or ready to issue any ultimatems. I keep half thinking about it but then reading a story like that makes me realize if I get there, I WILL know.

About the wedding, some ideas:

- Yes, bring extra makeup and visine. And kleenex. Unless you really get weepy, some crying at weddings is normal anyway.

- Waterproof mascara, or no mascara.

- I'd suggest that YOU decide not to go with H. Don't leave that up to him. It's one of the few things in your control in this sitch, so enjoy it and take control. Not as a bitter or angry thing, but as if you are a lovely single lady going to the wedding and you might run into your ex-BF. I realize if the seating is assigned at the reception you might end up sitting with him but I'm sure you'll be at a table with other people too. Look hot, chat it up with those people, be cordial to H.

- Really visualize yourself sitting calmly through the wedding, the toasts, all that stuff.

- Do have an exit plan just in case - but keep it in the back of your mind, try your best to have fun instead.

- Do you know who will be there? I'd make a mental list of everyone you want to talk to, what you want to ask them about, what (good) things have gone on in your life since you saw them last. Makes it much easier to mix and mingle!

Good luck - and have fun!