to deal with the hurt and anger (asides from going to the C of course) I highly recommend you read "Healing the hurt in your marriage) It will help you lots and will give you a new perspective. Sometimes we make the A take over and forget other issues that might've lead to the A. Ask yourself if you really want this M and decide do fight for it. I know it hurts to think of the A and one stars comparing oneself the the OP, but again, the A was just a quick fix, you both need to get to the rooth of your M.
hang in there
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.