vacation is over, I am leaving

[limbo]

No real change to things, we seem to be ok...which is good, we went out and had a couple of drinks last night, H said that he is feeling really good about things, so thats good, and I am also trying.
However my little says, we have been here before, a couple of times, so why is this time going to be different? Whats going to make him choose to stay away from the ow for good?
It is hard because I can't help but put some faith back in him, and get my hopes up, but it is so incredibly scary, because he could hurt me again!