Some woman, if not your W, is going to reap the benefits of the new you. You're some kinda powerful quick study & it's been fun to watch unfold.
Making me blush as usual, sunny! Thanks for the PMA boost!
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you really are a whole new man than the one who started posting here! And in record time, too. Hope you're really feeling it deep down, by this point (I went/go through a lot of "fake it til you make it" days).
Thank you for the PMA boost too, Nikki! I am feeling the changes deep down, and they are sticking more and more (becoming more natural). I know that it is necessary, which obviously makes it that much easier to accomplish. It's hard to work on changes when you doubt their impact and necessity in your life.
I'm obviously disappointed in my W's choice to follow through with the D (as well as my own choices that lead her to feel the need to do this), but I'm adjusting to the reality relatively well now. I've talked to her a few times lately, with her being short with me at times. I continue activating my duck's back when this happens, but I've also found that I'm not so "bubbley" with her anymore. I think this is a good thing, as long as I continue with being the better man I know I can and should be. I sign off on the D tomorrow (she signed off today). She has gotten really impatient with the whole process lately, since some things got delayed (mainly due to her atty). When she acted this way toward me a few days ago, I simply asked, "Is there a reason why you need it done as soon as possible?" She immediately chilled a little and said "No, I'm just mad at my atty."
I think she just needs/wants some closer with this D so she feels more comfortable in her new(?) R. Sounds like it's going strong, but I've heard that she tries to keep the finances as separate as possible (tries to avoid asking him for help).
That's all I've got, as I have a hard time analyzing my R with W now that I know it's over. I just don't really care anymore, which certainly helps me in the detaching dept!
Making me blush as usual, sunny! Thanks for the PMA boost!
