OMG I could have written your last paragraph!! Scary!!!! I was always wanting H's approval and ended up walking on eggshells, forgetting what *I* actually wanted, and spent all my time worrying about what he wanted or needed. But...if you ask him, he will say he felt the same stuff about me. UGH I have been stepping back lately and letting him deal with his stuff.
Oh man, you have had a ROUGH year. Kudos to you for sticking it out, you are very super strong!!! I am so glad H made the right choice, realizing how much he was giving up. And your weekend in R will do wonders. You should be very proud of yourself!
