Hi Jill - congrats on quitting smoking! I'm so proud of you! Now back onto the diet and exercise - you'll feel better, really (sounds like you did ok on that hike ). I'm still training for Mt. Whitney - got my permits to climb starting May 29th!
Maybe you and H can work in some exercising together? He would probably enjoy seeing you taking care of yourself. I know that's been huge for my H, and the weight issue, however superficial, was huge for him too.
Jill -- What an inspirational post! Sounds as though you are doing really great. Congratulations on quitting smoking -- what a wonderful thing to do for yourself!
Hope to see you posting often!
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
UGH!! Bad couple of days! I've become the B#$@% from Hell! My kids have been sick for over a month (pink eye twice, ear infection, bronchitis, etc., for both kids!). So, for the past week I've been trying to get them appointments with the dr. (military doc., hard to get appt.). Anyway, each time I called, I was told "sorry, no appts. available". Finally, two days ago, the nurse called me back. I told her both my daughters have fevers, caughing, lethargic, etc. She told me not to worry about it until their fevers went up to 104 degrees +. So, as upset as I was, I figured she knew what she was talking about, WRONG!!!
Last night at 11pm my 3 year old daughter was throwing up, her fever hadn't gone down at all for two days, this was with motrin and tylenol. So, I said "Screw this!!" And I took her to the ER. They did all sorts of test. Poor baby!! It was so horrible to see her in pain when it could have been prevented!!
It turned out my baby has pneumonia, a severe ear infection, and a throat infection!!! I'm so pissed off that no one would give me an appointment!! So, we got home at 4 am, I stayed awake and decided to take my 16 month old daughter to the doctors office on base.
I walked in, no appt., and told them I wasn't leaving until someone looked at her. They told me "sorry, only one Dr. in today, no appts. avail, she can't be seen today, how about Monday". I said "No, maybe you didn't understand me, I'm NOT LEAVING until someone sees my baby". So, I explained the situation w/my kids, that my older daughter is now VERY ILL because NO ONE would see her, and I was not going to allow it to happen again, etc. I said that I wanted to make sure her ear infection had cleared up and that she didn't have something more serious. So, they sent a nurse to us right away and GUESS WHAT??? My baby has a throat infection AND an ear infection!!!
So, now both my kids are on meds. My older D is on Biaxin (Spelling??) and she refuses to take it, must take pretty bad. So I'm trying to figure out ways to add it to things so she won't taste it so much, I've tried pudding, no luck. Any ideas??
Anyway, I appologized to H this morning (he stayed w/older d while I took younger d to Dr.). I told him that I'm so sorry that I was being a bitch, and I hoped that it didn't change how he had come to think of me. He said that he had problems with me before because I was being a bitch all the time, he understands the stress I've been under. But, I feel terrible! I want to do something nice for him, any ideas? I was thinking of a nice massage tonight?? He loves when I give him massages, and his love languages are acts of service and physical contact. So, I think it would make him pretty happy for me to give him a massage?
Well, just wanted to touch base about why I haven't been on here too much!
Hi. Horrible night. D is back at the hospital (H took her). She can't keep her medicine down (Biaxin). She keeps throwing up, so we are assuming she's allergic? Anyway, I haven't had any sleep, I'm the one who gives all the meds., takes care of the sick kids, goes to the hospital when they are sick, takes them to dr. appts. etc. Now, I know that's what I'm supposed to do since I'm their mom, and I'm at home and not working, but H just stands around when older D is having a tantrum tonight about taking her medicine. I got SOOOO flustered, I yelled at her, and my H, then I stormed out of the house. I just stood on the front step, but I felt like I wanted to put my head through a wall!
So, H tells me to take her to the ER, I told him to do it, that I couldn't do it again tonight, being tired, and I'm so upset about all of this. My kids have been sick for over a month! So, he got ready to take her to the ER, and I told him I was sorry for being a you-know-what, and he said "don't worry about it". Well, I'm worried about it. I've been nasty for a few days, and he says he understands, but I don't know if he "really" understands or if he just doesn't want to talk about it (that was his M.O. b/4 the bomb, not wanting to discuss anything).
So, b/4 they left, I held D and told her that I was sorry I yelled but I want her to get better and I was worried when she wouldn't take her meds. Then, she was throwing up, and I got more worried. I've been crying since they left. I feel like a horrible mom, a horrible wife too.
H decided he didn't love me anymore because I was a B#$^% in our "old" R. Well, I'm nervous that now maybe he thinks the old me is back, when she really isn't, you know what I mean? I'm just having a bad few days.
Jill - Calm down sweetie - your anxiety about being cranky is making you more cranky! About the Biaxin - it is a relative of erythromycin. It's not an allergic reaction, but about 10% of people get problems with nausea and vomiting when they take erythromycin or related drugs. Part of the erythromycin molecule resembles a natural protein that stimulates the digestive tract, and in these people the antibiotic "fits" into that receptor just like that protein would - result, nausea and vomiting. My D can't take it either. In the future, ask for a different antibiotic if they offer you Biaxin, erythromycin, or Pediazole (which is a mix of erythromycin and sulfa).
Pneumonia can make you vomit too but I'm betting it is the Biaxin.
As for the moodiness - sleep deprivation doesn't do much for your disposition. Tell H you are sorry and that you just are so exhausted from lack of sleep that you lost your perspective. Have something nice ready for him when he gets home. One little backslide is not the end of the world. Okay? Ellie
Ellie: You are a lifesaver tonight. I needed a lift from somebody, thanks so much. I haven't been a good BB friend lately, just so involved in what's going on here.
Thanks so much for the info about the meds. Younger D is on Amoxocillan (Spelling??), and has no problems with it. But, H is going to see tonight at the ER is there is anything else they can give older D instead of the Biaxin. I don't think the Amox. fights pneumonia?
Anyway, thanks for the advice, I appreciate it so much!
Don't worry there are lots of other drugs they can give her. Just make sure next time you go to her primary care that they mark on her chart that she can't tolerate Biaxin or you might forget and give it or erythromycin to her again some time. Not dangerous but sure makes you feel stupid when you figure it out ("oh yeah, I remember now, this one vomits with Biaxin - DUH").
I know it feels sometimes like if you drop one of the balls you are juggling, this whole miracle of having your H back may evaporate. I live with it too. It does get better with time, I think - and with the confidence that our changes are for US, not for them.
Hi. Quick update. D had to get two antibiotic shots in her legs because the docs. weren't sure if she had gotten enough of the med. into her system. They switched her to Augmentin (Spelling?). She took it like a champ this morning, no problems! HURRAY!! I am sure it tastes better than that other stuff, and since it can be kept cold, it probably goes down easier.
She has to go back to the doc. today for a check up, to make sure things are going ok, etc. I wasn't going to take her because she had just been to ER again last night, but I decided it was best to go today instead of after the weekend. I hope this pneumonia goes away. She's caughing hard, but I think that's good for her right now. Younger D is feeling so much better, her caugh is almost gone. I'm tired and need a long nap! LOL
H and D didn't get home until after 1am. H was cuddling w/me, etc. We talked a little bit, he rubbed my hair, said he understood how I was feeling and he feels his role in our R is to remain calm during situations like this because he thinks it keeps me calmer. It does; I can't imagine both of us being nuts at the same time! Sometimes though, BEFORE he explained how he likes to remain calm, I got angry at his calmness. I saw it as he expected me to take care of things, and that he didn't get upset because he knew he didn't need too as long as I took care of things. Now, since he explained his feelings to me, I feel much differently. I told him that sometimes he really made me angry by his calmness, but now I understand and appreciate his way of thinking about things.
Ok, so, maybe now both kids will get better (on meds for 10 days), H and I will keep relating like we have been, I will stop being a B#$%^, and all will go back to normal, or our "new" normal.
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