OK, I am getting a little better at recognizing my feelings. The alone feeling feels like an emptiness inside my ribcage, for example. Not sure what to do with these feelings really. I know keeping them bottled up wlll lead to resentment and will eventually cause me to implode. Letting them out sets MrsGGB off into a tailspin, saying she must be a dissappointment, is a lousy wife etc. I guess I got to let them out calmly and rationally and then not get sucked into her [censored]. Hmm, tall order.
As to what makes me happy, well, I've got a ways to go on that. A quiet sunny morning makes me happy, and since MrsGGB isn't a morning person, it has been a while since I've gotten up and enjoyed one (note to self, sounds like something to do really soon). Flying makes me happy as long as I don't start feeling guilty for spending the money, which with the price of Avgas and the 14 gallons per hour the airplane burns, well that adds up to a lot of dough. I get a high off of planning/designing something and then making it work. I also am happy solving puzzles (I've become somewhat of a Suduko junkie. The one in the paper is MINE, and nobody better touch it). I've still got a ton of soul searching to do. I haven't a clue as to my purpose.
