I see where I made the mistakes but I think we all get in to a rut and don't realize it. I believe I am getting stronger and if we D I believe now I can go on. Not saying there won't be some down days. I have feelings that I would still take him back (I don't know Why) and then you have the feelings could you ever love someone else or is there any one else out there. I often think would I still make the same mistakes. He needs to go back on a job.
I can totally relate to those feelings. I'm doing pretty good about not obsessing over him lately. I've decided I would be better off without him because of the pain he has caused me and he has no remorse. He thinks he is entitled to happiness and he wasn't happy with me. What happened to the vows "for better or worse"? I thought marriage was working together for the betterment of the family you created. I guess all of our WAS don't feel that way. That's why it's up to us to take responsibility for our own well-being.
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
