Okay, since everyone is being so kind, I feel that I must be square with you. I find myself beginning an EA. Not because I'm wanting to get back at my H, it's because my needs aren't being met and I'm still not 100% engaged in our M because of our history. I don't want to screw anything good up either way. This is exactly why I've pretty much locked myself in the house. I know that I'm vulnerable and I wanted to keep myself from being tempted.
Should I confess to my husband? It really hasn't gotten far at all, three e-mails is all but I consider that cheating and I don't want to cheat.
