Hope everyone is doing well. Haven't heard from H since Fri. Don't expect too since there's a huge time difference and he said he'd get in touch w/me b/4 he got to his "next location". He comes home on the 3rd, I can't wait.
I miss him so much. I'm kind of down in the dumps today. I hate the weekends when he's gone. Just me and the kids. Not that I hate being w/the kids, but I like spending time together as a family. I am so thankful though, that he isn't deployed yet, then he'd be gone for 6 or more months. That would truly be horrible. If that happens, I'll go stay with family back in the states. It's pretty lonely here with no one around.
I'm still feeling a little insecure about us. I trust him not to get involved in another EA (due to our R being in a good place now), but I'm still nervous that his time away from me will cause him to lose the feelings he's found for me.
I keep reading the letter he wrote me Valentine's Day. It's full of love, how much he loves me, looks forward to a long, great life with me, "ILY, please never forget that".
That letter is such a pick me up. He wanted a D only this past Dec., and now he's found all of this love again for me.
Anyway, just wanted a place to dump my sadness about missing him. Thanks for "listening"!
