Are we piecing yet?

[Have Faith]

EM - I read your whole sitch and I really feel for you. You have been doing this for over a year. I don't think that I could do that. I just cring to think that this would go on longer then a year.

My H moved out to a friends house one week ago and it is so unsettling because I know that he can be with OW whenever he wants now. I just have to stop obsessing with it. We were getting so close and now I feel like all the hard work will have not be worth it. He even told me that he was 90% back to me. How I'm afraid that the scales will start shifting to her side. I guess that if that is the case, then it is better for me to find out now and not a year from now.

I'm going to try the LRT and 180 for 1 month. If I don't see any positive changes, then I stop. Maybe by then I won't care. I doubt that.

Brainstorming
1)Well I already do my grocery shopping Saturday day. Don't think I want to move this to the evenings.
2)A movie might be fun. I don't have any problem doing this alone. My friends are married so it would probably have to be by myself.
3)I belong to a golf club and I could spend a couple of hours there, but I would be by myself and that would really peak the interest of some of the other members (threat to the married women and prey for the single men).
4)The mall would be ok for a while. I would probably spend money
5)I do enjoy going to the bookstores and looking at books. I could at least do that for a couple of hours.
6)I do like to read. Maybe reading at one of the local coffee houses for a while would at least change the atmosphere.
7) At this point volunteering doesn't interest me.
8) I could do a workout at the gym. This can be depressing as my H meet the OW at the gym.
9) I could do one of the above and then have a movie rental available when I went home.

Our annual family golf vacation is coming up the second week of September. My H was suppose to ask for this time off, as he just got a new job in July, but it appears he is too chicken to request one week of unpaid vacation, because he keeps procastanating asking. I told him yesterday that I would go ahead an make arrangements without him. Told him that we would all miss him and I was real sweet.

I have a single golf buddy that I have told H that I might take. (H wasn't keen on this) My golf buddy knows my sitch, and I have told him that we could only be friends and that he would have to accept our relationship this way or not at all. I have always been very up front with him. I know that he would like more, but he knows there isn't anymore. Not even if my H were gone. I'm just not attracted to him. Nice guy and fun, but nothing else.

My H ask me to meet him in the park for lunch and I told him I was busy. I guess this is the first part of my 180 and LRT. He is suppose to be over to the house Saturday morning to get the oil changed in my car. Has not mentioned anything about getting together Saturday night. This just breaks my heart. We are golfing on Sunday.

Faith