No, I know she wants some time to think. There is no other person or dating involved. According to Jody this could jump start our marriage. She needs time to think and to sort out everything without me being there. She also need to miss me. If I'm always there, it probably gives her anxiety and pressure. Until she can feel that she's independent and not being "controlled" by me, she won't be thinking about working on our M. I already did the I won't move out thing. She gave it a 3 months try before she decided that she wants a D. So if I pull that crap she will file the papers. No ifs or buts. At least this gives me a chance to my M. With me being there my M isn't going anywhere forward. She's not happy and she isn't willing to work on it to make the M better. Plus, this is what she wants and it shows that I am listening to her needs.
The bottom line is that I know my W and I will trust her on this. And yes, even after the EA. It was a "special" circumstance that is now over. If she truly misses me and wants this M then she will turn around in the end. If not, nothing in the world I can do to stop her or change her mind. I have given up trying to control everything. I can only control myself and strive to make things better for me and my kids. I need to have faith in her to have hope that the M will turn around. And yes it may be a dry run for divorce. And believe me our kids will make it REALLY hard for her to like the situation. Right now she feels comfort with me around. Well, we'll remove that comfort and see what happens. The whole point is to show her that even though she thinks she may want D, it's a much pleasant and happier life with me than w/o me. I will do everything I can to prove those stats wrong. It's 70%. But I will be the 30%. If it's such a sure thing then it'd be 100%. In the end I know that at least I gave it my best shot and did everything I can. No regrets.
M: 31 W: 31 M: 7 T: 8 S:4 D:2 Bomb dropped: too many to count or remember, 12/17/07 last one S on 9/2/07 W sent off D papers 12/31/07. Me trying to live life and hope she returns one day.
