WAW filing for D

[dlt1]

Thanks all. Rain, no it ended (twice) with me walking away after I realized how much she was dragging me down emotionally. I had given it a second chance b/c thought she had worked on not being so negative. We have a 'working' R but that's it. She is occasionaly at a mutual friend's social gatherings and we say hello and that's about it. I found that I really don't like her. I'm more indifferent I guess than not liking. Anyway, if I do become her boss and have to push some things, she will not be happy. After rading all your sitch's and other's, I know that there could be a wake up down the road. I feel like this is really allowing me to truly DB. I look back and see that I wasn;t there, was holding on too tight. I'm not thinking about if we get to that point. In my mind we never will. I can cross that bridge if we ever get there. Right now I know I have zero trust and respect for her. Later in life? I honestly have no idea and don't want to speculate.
I am beat, was up late on the phone with friends. Hitting me now. This may be good as I am more emotional when tired. I've not had very strong emotional talks with C, and feel I need one. I don;t know if I want to talk about W and A, or just focus on how best to move forward. It's strange, I have a good bit of confidence, and just know I will survive and somehow someday find someone. BUt I'm scared to death.