(BTW, SSMers, Gwyn has another thread that might help you understand the dynamics in her M that might be helpful to helping her out on this matter...)
Anyway, I just wanted to chime in quickly on one thing. On that thread and on this thread, you keep making money a barrier to progress on your M. On the other thread, you thought Retrouvaille was a good idea, but didn't want to pay for it. On this thread, you don't want to pay for a P.I.
I'm concerned this isn't even just about money -- for things to change, it will take an investment on your part, maybe financial, certainly emotional...
OK, I'm outta here. Looks like you are getting some great stuff here. I'm really glad to see you trying to tackle this stuff, I can see that you are making an emotional investment, so I'm sure you'll make some progress on the M issues one way or another.