I'm back! Heard a great speaker yesterday on Stress Management and decided I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and move ahead. I should probably move to "surviving", but still have issues to deal with re. infidelity/jealousy before I move over there.
Here is an update:
1. I filed (I am the one with the lawyer; H wants to save money and not get a lawyer as long as we can come up with our agreement together). I know I needed a lawyer. 2. Met with a divorce financial planner/mediator with H. I thought that would help, but I actually felt worse after that meeting! Amazing how everything is MY fault! 3. Will make an appt for counseling for me(with the speaker I heard on stress mgt. I liked her style and can get 3 free sessions thru work). 4. Keep with my current job, but reframe my attitude! I can still actively look for a job, but try to find some enjoyment where I am now). 5. Back to improving my health: exercise and eat better (I haven't been a good example for my poor D16 ...haven't felt like cooking and I just grab fast food for her). I also plan to get some health appts scheduled before my health insurance changes (like that colonscopy I have put off for years!)
Still have good days and bad days, but trying to control my feelings instead of having H control them!
