Another dip in the road........

[bambam1970]

I've spent some time away from my thread to catch my breath. I am having a tough week. Today H picked kids up after school and took them to his house for dinner etc. I cried. For an hour, I cried.

I cried because I hate my H for doing this to our family.

I cried because I'm coming to terms with some real issues in my marriage.

I cried because my son said "I don't know who to spend the night with on my birthday."

I cried b/c H is an ass and makes my babies feel guilty if they don't call him or want to spend the night.

I cried b/c the dreams I once had about my future and my family are now gone.

I cried b/c I didn't want my kids to be from a divorced home.

I cried b/c I don't want to be a single mom.

I cried b/c I just felt pretty damn sorry for myself!

Than..................

I picked myself up off the floor and brushed off. Visited my new house and found the drywallers had almost finished

Went to dinner w/my sister

Got my babies back home

I am thankful that I have many more good days than bad days anymore!

I'm ready for tomorrow.