I'm just in a such crappy place right now. Missing my family. 5 more days until I see them. The W seems to be pissed at me. Which makes me more down. She seems to be more positive before she went on the trip. Maybe she's just overwhelmed by the kids. She's had a really bad day.... Hope that's it. I'm having a hell of a time focusing at work. Just couldn't do it. It doesn't help that I'm working on this problem that doesn't seem to get anywhere. Can't eat... At least I can sleep. No matter how hard I try to be in PMA it's just not working. I just feel so hopeless. I was doing so much better when I thought the W wanted to do everything she can to make our M work. And unfortunately I got no friends to have an outlet. And rehashing the same miserable crap makes me down anyways. Just wish the W is a bit more sympathetic about the situation besides getting mad at me. It's easy for her to deal with it since she's calling the shots. I don't see her breaking down due to potential end of M. She said she's been through it all and has dealt with her emotions of me not being there for her and she has made peace with it. Well I certainly has not seen her as miserable as I am now throughout our marriage. If she was I would've woke up a lot sooner!
Should I tell my parents the situation or should I just keep quiet?
M: 31 W: 31 M: 7 T: 8 S:4 D:2 Bomb dropped: too many to count or remember, 12/17/07 last one S on 9/2/07 W sent off D papers 12/31/07. Me trying to live life and hope she returns one day.
