I do realize after our convo that 90% of this is still about him - his pride, his hurt, his anger, what I did to HIM.
KS - I have been thinking about this, especially the pride part. I keep thinking that we (meaning many of us on this board) have to overcome "male pride" in addition to all of the other challenges we face with MLC.
Not to bash or stereotype the gentlemen here who are going through the same h*ll that we are, but I don't know that my H would ever come home, simply because of his pride.
He is never wrong. NEVER. And, if by the off chance he had a bad day and was wrong, he would never admit it. And I don't just mean during his MLC - he has been blessed with being right his entire life.
When I try and fast forward (I know I shouldn't be doing this) to the part where he comes out of this fog, I don't see him saying, I was wrong to leave you. And to him, coming home would be exactly like saying that. It would be admitting to himself and others that he was wrong.
I know that it is not about right and wrong - but I don't know that he will look at it that way.
I'm so proud of you for praying for your H's healing. I need to learn this lesson from you.
