Frustrated and More Saddened #3

[stewart10]

Thanks Heim.

Oh, man, I'm sorry. There may be a reasonable explanation, but I think we all know what's going on. So, you've gone from suspecting an A to being fairly certain that there is one.

You are probably right. There is not much else I can think of that could explain this away. And unfortunately I think I am certain there is an affair.

OK. Breath. You're in shock. You're probably shaking, nauseus, unable to focus, and your thoughts are racing. That's ok and normal. Don't try to shut off the pain because you're going to feel it one way or the other. Let it out.

I am doing my best here with this. Very difficult. I have not been able to get past this. I saw the statement at 6:30 last night and it has been the only thing I have thought about since then.

Use today/tonight to calm yourself down.

Going to be hard tonight as I am going to be in court until about 9. Then off to my parents for dinner.

The pain does pass.

I am anxiously awaiting that day when it does.

I don't know what to do right now. It has got to the point where I am completely at breaking point. I don't know how much longer I can do this. She knows I am seriously contemplating a major change in my life, something that I have worked so long for (becoming an attorney) and she won't even come home tonight to talk about it. She has become super selfish and this is just another example of it. I think I am at the point where I say, enough. There is nothing coming from her side of the R. This disease of a relationship that is supposed to be a marriage has begun to infect other areas of my life. I cannot continue just maitaining the status quo. I need to be in a relationship where the other individual is at least as cimmitted as I am. She is not able to do this for me.

I have a lot of anger right now. And it is not solely directed at her. Just never thought I would be here. How can she be so indifferent?