Pfft. you didnt need to get your head messed up with "the secret". that's wierdo mumbo-jumbo garbage. You just needed to re-read divorcebusting The positive constructive things you said, are right out of there:
Positive Mental Attitude Choosing small steps/goals to aim for
etc.
I really do hope the best for your situation. It just looks a whole lot like other ones that have been revealed to be deceitful spouses. (actually, it seems to mostly be wives that do this. husbands tend to take more of a "forget you" attitude, it seems)
My current status: june 2006. Wife ran out and filed D. Finalized Jan 11, 2010, after 12.5 years M. 3 wonderful sons caught in the middle