It has been an incredibly difficult last couple of days. Tomorrow should be better. There has been a lot of non R issues to deal with out of the home. I was having one of those days where I almost just don't care any more, but I think I'm back on track. I've had a real good look at how short life is and of course what I'm dealing with now didn't seem worth all the hassle. However, I also saw that I am the one that has to answer for my actions, even to my own children. So the game drags on.
Some days I wonder if I will ever see a nice anniversary card again from W. Some days I feel like a "walking saint", some days I feel like Sam Kineson. Don't know if I should smile or scream, if I should say something or not. Let's see how tomorrow plays out.
