OK, my friends, tonight I need your support and opinions. There has been much talk on this board and others about my WS. These are pretty deep cutting suggestions. From what I understand, people seem to think that my wife has some very, very deep and serious issues that are way beyond the A and the M. I'm OK right now. Please don't think I'm going bananas. I've heard everything from BiPolar to BPD to HPD to sex issues to NPD, Jerry Springer, FOO, etc. Whewww...
WTF?
WTF?
WTF?
I don't know what to think other than what to think.
I talked to counselor again today mostly about other matters. A friend was over who has been talking to my wife. He says she just doesn't care. She'll do whatever it takes to keep me off her back so that she can see the kids. Imagine that. That attitude has been pointed out so many times too.
I've told two oldest and dearest friends who were there when I met her the story. I've told them details. I get the WTF response again. When I tell of the sex issue, both are guys, they looked at me like I was crazy. Same with the lying. Etc.
I'm OK. I'm detached, but the feelings of violation, and being used are really strong right now. It honest to God is making me sick to my stomach. I feel these really friggin' strongly right now. They are absolutely 10 bazillion times more disgusting feeling then the A. I can understand the A. But this is friggin' ridiculous. 15 f**cking years of this. And finally being aware of it.
