Heimlich, Yeah I played a big role in flushing down my M down the drain. Wish I can take it back but it's not possible... I'm trying really hard not to talk about R or myself. I'm thinking about scheduling a phone session here. Maybe that'll straighten me out and give me some hope. I am fully aware of what I did and she is aware that I know what I did and how sorry I am. Doesn't help her letting go yet though. I did give her a standing offer of hitting me with a 2x4 if she feels that can help her release. I just really need to learn to shut up. I swear I need somebody to smack me before I start talking.
M: 31 W: 31 M: 7 T: 8 S:4 D:2 Bomb dropped: too many to count or remember, 12/17/07 last one S on 9/2/07 W sent off D papers 12/31/07. Me trying to live life and hope she returns one day.
