atgo, the thing is, I will not be 2nd best, I never will be. he will either want me, for real, and w/o hesitation, or he won't. but he won't get me and pine for her. it won't happen. I won't just have him to have him. nope. not gonna do it.
doesn't mean there can't be reconciliation. just means a lot has to happen between now and then.
but again, honestly, i don't expect it to happen, and I'm not going to live like I do anymore. I'm just going to live my life. I'm going to be me, and I deserve a hell of a lot more than I've been getting. the next man in my life, either my h or some other man, is going to be damn lucky to have me, but is also going to have to show me he's worth having me.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
