WAW filing for D

[dlt1]

Hey Matt! The song was by the Clash...Should I stay or Should I go NOwwwwwwww!!!
Yeah, I backed off reading. Was at the library returnig DR and looked at some coping with D type stuff. Not there yet. just looking at limbo and working on me. Today at C I saw that the ending is possible, a long way down the road. Just not probable. This is due to things outside my control. I am accepting a loss of control on a daily basis. It is liberating. If I can't control it, I find myself worrying less about it. I'm not calculating my next steps.
While I still want to change things I can't control
I am learning to let it go. Rain's detach link helps, as did my C sesh today.
C tells me today: "Do you know how frustrating it is to have two people in MC accepting theior faults, working to better themselves, but one does not relate any to her current R?"
Yeah, I have an idea
But really, it's interesting how close we are to working on R, but aren't doing it.
So, I'm working on setting boundaries with W. I haven't been honest with myself when with W as much as I need to be. Realizing the dif between detaching and giving up. I'm excited and apprehensive. Still worry that W will turn to anger. But, once again, can't control that...only my own PMA. Will be intersting this next week. Looking forward to talking to W tomorrow as she should be on cloud 9, and I will be too b/c of that. Fear she won't call, but acting as if she will be true to her word. I guess I'm 80% sure she will call me.
Hmmmm. what else do I have? Did I mention I'm writing this on the laptop in the living room instead in the cave upsatirs? I'm the smartest person ever, even though I really don't know how I did it
Going to initiate promo convo with the owners tomorrow. Wed shall be a truly great day!!! Looking at a trifecta of wonderful experiences. I can control 2 of the 3. Taking action!
Back to Matt, I will check your thread, have seen some of it, but not all. If you're in the midst of S, read the book. You can use it for yourself if W is not engaged in actively working. Perhaps I'll have greater insight once i catch up. It's nice to know there are others 'lurking' on my sitch. Thanks for checking in. Ice Road Truckers on soon. (I'm in trucking) Now i can watch and post. ( I've had a cell for only a few months, so pardon my excitement about tech that seems normal to many).
Oh, last thouight, C reinforced that W is in a selfish state, not exactly bad, just has to work on her own right now. I'm good with that. And see that time is on my side. Need to be hopeless so to speak, any hope that pops up is a baby step forward from there!