need help to win back WAW

[DaveJ]

Arrrrrg! I really need to quit doing this! Talked to W on the phone earlier. Can't stop myself talking about the R. Totally pissed her off. I just need to be whacked by a 2x4 no matter what. For whatever reason I'm just having a really bad day missing her and the kids and just couldn't stop myself. Maybe I'm just dreading the separation that's coming up and missing them, and it's really screwing with my emotions.

And now she is saying that she wants to save the marriage IF it's possible. And she's totally undecided on what she wants to do and if she is able to do it. Can she get over the resentment? Yeah of course she can if she wants to. Does she have the motivation or desire to? Who knows.... And I'm not exactly helping there it seems. She's saying I'm trying to make her feel guilty by telling her I'm willing to do anything to save the M and that it's desperation and not commitment. I'm just trying to get her to understand how serious I am. What's the point of doing something desperate instead of actually committing to what you say? It'll just regress if it's desperation and we'll be back at square one. Why can't she get it? I still don't understand how exactly telling her how I feel is pressuring her. It's not like I'm hounding her to make a decision, set a date, or making any sort of commitment. Just trying to be honest with her about how I feel and I thought that's what she's been wanting forever.....