Well it is a year tomorrow that my husband walked out of the door after he told me that he felt empty, the whole bomb process took about a week from the time i found out there was something wrong, to him actually walking out of the door, i was shocked to say the least. He never really made any effort to try and get back on track, he just left because OW was wating in the wings. I did not realise what the year ahead had in store for me. I could never have imagined the ups and downs that i would go through and the things i would have to struggle with. A year on and i can see that my husband still is not truly happy but only he can sort himself out. I feel so sad for my little girl who deserved none of this, why is it that my husband says that he would die for D3 but yet cannot try and commit to his family, this does not make sense to me. I do try and understand what he is going through but sometimes when he seems so distance and oblivious to his family and home etc, i get frustrated and just want to shake him and ask him, where is the man that i knew and loved for 10 years. In his reality though he probably thinks he is still the same person that he has always been but i know that my loving, moral, sane husband would never have treated his wife and his little girl this way. My husband has missed out on so much already with D3 which is very sad but at the end of the day it is his choice.
There are alot of positive that have also come out of this last year. I have learned how to GAL, cherish the people that are close to me and learned that no matter what i will be ok .
My husband will be here tomorrow visiting D3, i do not intend mentioning anything about the fact that it is a year to the day that he decided to walk out on his family, the 2 people that love him unconditionally. I suppose he does not need me reminding of the choices that he has made.
Hope everyone is ok
Nicky
Me 34 H 33 D3 together 10 years married 2 years Bomb 22/8/06 (I feel empty) OW involved
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