I don't know if I am right or wrong. probably wrong. I wonder if I had found db earlier, would that have made a difference? possibly. I just know as much as I wish I could save my marriage, I just can't let myself go thru this anymore. I can't. I need to draw this line, and I need to protect myself and allow myself to move forward. at this point, I'm not going to do anything more. the ball is back in his court. I don't think anything will change for him, but at least I feel like I can look myself in the mirror again. I can, because I am/have been doing everything possible to save my marriage. at the same time, I'm not a complete doormat.
I've had a big problem trying to walk that line between the two...db and doormat. for too long I think I've been on the wrong side. will now try to be a little stronger.
irish, I'm heading outside with the kids for a while, but will definitely check your thread out today. take care of yourself.
and my3sons, lol at the ex-lax cookies. thats exactly what I should do. lol.
nikki and ks, I do feel like I did things wrong, possibly, based on your posts. but I also still feel good about what I wrote, so I guess that is something. and lol to the idea of me rummaging thru his cupboards...since he lives with ow, for the most part, that would be wonderful to do...just walk in and start going thru them. lol.
doubt I'll get a response from h, but if I do, will let you all know what he said.
Last edited by morgan; 08/21/0705:43 PM.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
