okay, miss-lack-of-patience did e-mail. I feel good about it, actually. it may not be db-ing, but I needed to do it for myself. this is what I said.
guess this morning kind of re-iterated the need for me not to hear about your social life anymore. I'm not blaming you, I asked questions, I inserted myself into things this morning...seeing your car and such. it was just hard for me, I guess, hearing about the party. this job change is the first major event in your life in 13 years that I am not a part of. something I'll get used to...like I said, I'll get there, but it will take time, and it will take me actively distancing myself from you as much as possible.
same with hearing about how (boss) knows. and like the trip to the lake. it was hard that (best friend's wife) knew where things stood with us before I did. I wonder, how do you put it when you tell people? do you tell them we are separated? do you tell them we are getting a divorce? what do you say? I'm curious.
so lets just keep things about the kids, and about whatever business we might have, but no social stuff, okay? same with my end...I'd prefer it if you don't ask about my plans, or even about what I talk about in therapy.
maybe someday, after I've had time to really put things behind me, I'll be able to be more friendly. but for now, I just can't. I'll keep saying hi to you when you come by, will ask about your family and such, just nothing personal, okay?
take care, m.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
