Yes ROOT that is what I am doing. I sure hope I can use my new found relationship information on my marriage with H, but am doubting more and more that I am going to get the opportunity. The more I look at stuff, go back through old letters etc, I see that he has been angry for a long, long time.
I read through the first 7-8 threads and totally understood your one about wanting to just run off to Florida. Oh my! just two days ago, I told my best friend, that I am ready to call H tell him he can move into the house, have the kids, the car, everything, and I will just pack and bag and go live under a bridge somewhere. UGH sometimes, the reality of what I have to put up with on a daily basis is so much, that not having any responsibility at all is very tempting. Not saying I would do it, but the thought did cross my mind. LOL
Last night was a bad night, had nightmares about H and the OW all night long. You know the nights where you keep waking up, but then go right back into the same nightmare when you go back to sleep. I am exhausted this morning and of course I can only think about all the crazy images running through my head.
