How funny! I just wrote Raven saying that I had eaten the brownies (that this hotel leaves in your room) late last night. I don't particularly LIKE that I ate them but since I had gone on a 6 mile run last night, I woke up not feeling badly at all.
It's really kind of interesting to me how my issues with food and dieting have for the most part disappeared since my marriage ended. I don't really overeat much and I don't really diet. I'm not overweight but I'm not particularly thin but I don't really want to be any thinner. I workout regularly but I judge my success more by how my body/mind is feeling/functioning ( I finally got me some triceps. Yay!) than whether I've been disciplined in terms of frequency. Clearly a lot of the fusion in my marriage was being manifested in my body. My sex drive really has gone down too. These days I'm sometimes actually kind of surprised by my hunger or my horniness. Like I'll go over to NG's house and he'll give me a big plate of tofu curry and 6 orgasms and when I enjoy it all, I think "Wow, I must have been hungry/horny!"
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
