Where do I begin?

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I feel so much anxitey all the time over what he is doing or not doing. I guess its because of the casual vagueness he labels us right now. When he wants to be close and spend time with me he does. When he doesn't hes gone.

I am so afraid of this upcoming wedding this weekend he is going to. There will be so many of my friends there watching and just waiting to tell me what he did. That is another thing. The people in my life are so worried and skeptical of him. For good reason I guess, but I just feel like they know he is going to mess up and is not sincere. Why can't he just take me?

How do you stop being obscessive? How do you stop worrying and thinking all of the time? I am pregnant and having a baby for heaven's sake, I should be happy and focused on that. Not what he is possibly doing.

I need help.