[SorryDog]

Hopeless...I am with you, I am 20 days away from being single...these days we are going thru right now are more than difficult ( until you are where we are at, it is hard to understand...you can read, talk, listen, pray, but until you get to these last hours it is a whole new set of emotions )...
I am attempting to embrace all of it and not run, yet my heart is so anxious right now, I guess hoping for that last min. return of our S or something, I can not really put a finger on it. The reality and the weight of it all is just sitting there in front of us. I want to be positive and all the good stuff that goes with it, yet there seems to be a heavy fog setting in.

I am holding on that after this fire, all the junk will be burnt away and our lives will be more pure..."Real Gold Fears No Fire"...I am trying to take inventory of all the positive aspects of my sit and build on that and walk forward.

Hang in there ...just heard a great song by Big Daddy Weave...the words hit home for me...
"Every Time I Breathe"
I am sure all of heaven’s heard me cry_As I tell You all the reasons why_This life is just too hard__But day by day_Without fail_I’m finding everything I need_And everything that You are_To me__Chorus:_Every time I breathe You seem a little bit closer_I never want to leave_I want to stay in Your warm embrace_Oh basking in the glory shining from Your face_And every time I get another glimpse of Your heart_I realize it’s true_That You are so marvelous God_And I am so in love with You__Now how could I after knowing One so great _Respond to You in any way_That’s less than all I have to give_But by Your grace I want to love You not with what _I say_But everyday_In a way that my life is lived__Chorus:__Wrapped in Your mercy I want to live and never leave_I am held by how humble_Yet overwhelmed by Your majesty_Captured by grace and now I’m finding I am free_You are marvelous God_And knowing You is everything__

Thats all...SorryDog