I have tried to keep my door open for the last 10 months. It is so hard after all the hurt. I keep thinking about what they have done, it makes me so sick.
And what will happen if I open the door and accept her back. What if OM decides to rekindle their romance, what if another OM comes on the scene?
I know, too many "what ifs".
I have been out on "dates", but W doesn't really ask, so she doesn't know. The dates have been more friendly dinners and such. I don't think emotionally I am ready as yet.
But I do get your point, it is all about perception. If she sees that I have moved on, have feelings for another then it might become real for her. She has always been jealous, even when we have been out to dinner, or shopping, she always gets angry when a waitress or shop assistant (female of course) would spend extra time chatting to me. She would want to rip their hair out.
Maybe that is part of the problem, the insecurity of always fretting that someone was going to take me away from her. Or that I would leave her. She has possibly pre-empted her fears by doing it to me?
