dlt1, you are doing super, I think you are harder on yourself than we have been, we are just try to tell you what we think will work for you, We are all still going through this, it's just that some of us, through trial and error have learned what works for us, So we try to help others, so they don't fall into the traps that we have been snared into.
Every feeling you have is valid, I know I have all of them still, to this day. the whole patience and anger ones are the hardest ones, to get through. especially the patience one, cause that one never goes away.
I want to commend you on your ability to not chase her, I've made that mistake so much, in the past, I even at first, fell asleep over at her house, a few times, part of it due to wanting to be near her and the kids, and part of it due to just plain exhaustion from all the things going on in my life, till she told me that that I had to stop it. Then came the OM, and Man, did I chase, mostly out of concern for her and the kids, and Man, did she run then. But you know that no matter how much she ran, she would always stop sooner or later, and talk to me. Now it is different, I am not chasing, so it may take a while, but I know that sooner or later she will want to talk to me. Her curiosity will get the better of her, and she will want to know what I am up to. And now with her finding out about my dream job, I look for it, soon.
Once again, I can't stress enough that friendship is the way to go, and you are on the right track, take a tip from Strange, he has never let his sitch get hostile, he has always managed to keep that friend mentality. He is a good role model for us all.
Anytime you need anything, just post it, and I will come running, although, next week, I will start my dream job, I will still check in on your thread, when I have the time. Keep up the good work. Take care.
