I am not quite sure how to answer you. The whole friends thing is something that she wanted! Talk about confusing!
It is very difficult from my side. While I still love her (always will I have a feeling), it is getting more and more difficult to try to have some sort of friendship with her. After a 2.5 or 3 hour dinner, it is difficult not to walk away and ask "Why are we divorced again?"
Just last week, I spoke with her twice. Probably would have gone out to dinner again if not for a funeral that she was attending and a party for work.
At times, I think it would be much much easier to hate each other! Which also leads me to your stitch.
I think in a way that is what yours is doing. Filling everything with hate in order to make it easier. The best thing that I can tell you is to let her go and start a life of your own. She is dealing with a lot of issues that she needs to work out. The only thing that you can do is to give her space and to develop you. Create the life you want, if she wants to try again, then incorporate her into your life again, just as you did when you first met.
That is the best advice I can give. While I am stronger than I was, there are times where I really miss not having her there. But the best thing that I was able to do is to create a life of my own!
CIAZ M 7/97 S 5/05 D 8/06 Both 33 years old No kids
