Oh I know where I caused the issues in the marriage that led up to the affair. I have done nothing but sat and looked deep at myself for the last two months, and see what I did wrong. The problem is my H still doesn't believe this, and still has yet to accept his responsibility in the breakdown in the marriage, let alone accepting that he is having a PA and that he had an ongoing EA for the last year. He is lying to himself, his family and friends and it drives me crazy. He turns everything around on me, and tells me that I will not accept responsibility. I have, and I have repeated that over and over, and just get so frustrated that he will not give me a chance. I guess I am just feeling a bit confused today. I just hate that I can tell that he is still confused, but he is so prideful and has been working up all this anger, resentment, and justification for his actions for the last year that he can not see straight. Sometimes I feel like I have to try to play catch up, because looking back I can see where he spent the last year working towards this. I can now see little things he did that lined it up so that he could move out and move on.
