KS - I can't believe that with everything you are going through right now, you were kind enough to post in my thread a little while ago.
I just read all of the posts in this thread and I can't get over some of the statements you have made - they mirror my thoughts.
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What's funny is I have this feeling. I can't describe it. It might be anger. Anger that he didn't actually try the plan he came up with. That he didn't give it a chance.
My H said he was just going through the motions of MC. It was his idea to go and he picked the guy. I, too, feel like he never gave it a chance. I asked him if his business was failing would he just give up? Of course not, but this is "different".
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I wish I didn't feel like throwing up all the time. My emotions are still so raw and so close to the edge. Stupid things make me tear up or cry. When will this end???????
I really understand how you feel here. Everyone says that it will get better, but it is hard to believe that now. My head tells me that it will, but my heart isn't agreeing.
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It's funny. I've been thinking about so many things. So many emotions going through my mind. Every second it seems to change. Makes it hard to feel "normal"....
I have anger, sadness and I've lost hope & faith in someone. I never thought that would happen. I guess we're human. We're not supposed to put our faith in others, but damn it I did. And I feel foolish for that. I believed.
I feel the same way - I gave up my life, my friends, my job to be here with him. I trusted. How will I ever be able to do that again?
I am not where you are now, but have a high degree of certainty that I will be joining you on that couch in two years. I will not sign, but like your state, it won't matter. The D will happen anyway.
I, too, take responsibility for problems in my marriage. But I don't take one ounce of responsibility for the way H is "fixing" the situation. I don't run from my problems - I address them head on.
I'm so sorry that you are where you are now. I wish that I could offer more comfort to you. I know that you know that you will be okay - but I think that the road to okay is paved with with speed bumps along the way. Some of the bumps seem mighty high.....
