forever21's journey still continues.....

[forever21]

Hi Trip. Thanks for posting!

I'm with you. I am not needing to let my needs be known too much right now. I covered the major points with him on that back in March. I am choosing not to TALK about any of that with him for now.... but I also am aware that I AM communicating through my actions even if they are small. Does that make sense?

I have worked hard to get to where I'm at with my communication with him. I am thankful to my C for showing me just how far I've come on this. I'm not yet where I want to be, but very happy with how far I've come. SO glad I have an appt on Wednesday too.

I think I'd do fine going surfing with him and just leaving it at that, as you say, but I needed time to think about it. The fact the surf conditions are no good right now has made it easy. There was part of me that was feeling a little unsure about going and hanging out with him for hours right away, knowing he is likely to fall back off the wagon next week. I had some concern with sending him the wrong message. I'm just taking the time to do what is best for me.

For example, this text he sent me last night stated that he "can always count on u when the chips are down". I don't know if the message "yep, you can ALWAYS count on me being here for you when YOU need me" is one I should be sending him right now. Maybe it's fine, and good. Just made me think twice about what I am communicating.

I called him a bit ago. It was a friendly short convo. We set a time to go out for coffee on Wednesday late morning. He actually listened and took action. He actually planned ahead and committed to a time. He is then going to let me use the truck for the afternoon. He asked if we were gonna be hashing things out. I said no, but that it would be fine with me if he wanted to and I truly meant it. I am just going with the flow... nothing is going to rock me. He was quick to say it wasn't what he wanted. He seems to be respectful of whatever I need to do, but told me he preferred to just hang out with me and talk. So, that should be fine. I'm looking forward to it.

OK, off to the gym... haven't been in too long.